A friend ask me yesterday that if i had a Christian name... for a moment, I questioned myself. Yes in a way but no as it's "not" an official name i called myself...
Lynn is a name that was never planned nor thought for, it's just purely a name that happen by chance or fate.... .... i remember very well that it was during my interview for a waitressing job and the lady boss asked me to have a christian name for easy recall and remembering... and the first name that came into my mind is Lynn. Don't ask me why, it's just popped into my mind when the boss threw me the "think of a christian name for yourself?"...
It's funny that I can't identify myself during my first few days of work... when people calling "lynn", i was like WHO!!! ha ha...
I never thought of having a christian name since i never start with one.. and I think it's weird to name yourself a different name after you had lived for 22 years... i still very much a "Traditional" lady that prefers to use the name named by my parents..... as a respect i guess... ...
Now after 7 years, i will say that this is a name that contains a lot of my memory, past and definitely a meaningful name that i feel close to my heart.... ... maybe it's also a side of life that i will never stepped in again... but it's also a phrase of life that make me who i am today...
though i still not used using it in my corporate life... (i guess i just used to people calling me BC, and BC is a name that is known to most of my friends, colleauge and working partners... so i just plain lazy to "re-introduce" myself")
So if you are reading this blog, yes I have a christian name, and it is LYNN.... this time if you call me using this name, I will definetly say Hi to you :)
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Monday, June 15, 2009
"Re"born again!
in my deep thoughts yet again last night and I realise that a lot of changes are going to happen in the coming next month......
On career wise, maybe it's not the best move, but at least I'm moving to something that I always like to do. Achieving my personal goal of doing volunteering work too, and I really looking forward to this new volunteer work thingy. It's a waste that I can't share much of it here, but nevertheless i know that this is my first step to attaining my future goal. :)
Very excited to my both new directions. i think it's really time to tune back my life and lead the way I will love it....
And lastly I am quitting smoking for sure :) ... .... since even my dentist ask me to do so due to the loss of bone of my tooth.
New life, new goals.. and i hope all's will go well.
On career wise, maybe it's not the best move, but at least I'm moving to something that I always like to do. Achieving my personal goal of doing volunteering work too, and I really looking forward to this new volunteer work thingy. It's a waste that I can't share much of it here, but nevertheless i know that this is my first step to attaining my future goal. :)
Very excited to my both new directions. i think it's really time to tune back my life and lead the way I will love it....
And lastly I am quitting smoking for sure :) ... .... since even my dentist ask me to do so due to the loss of bone of my tooth.
New life, new goals.. and i hope all's will go well.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Life is fine
inspired by this poem.. speak very much of the life most of us is leading now... why not lead a life that is fine... and stop whinning about bits and pieces of life... life is ironic.. doesn't it??
Life Is Fine by Langston Hughes
I went down to the river,I set down on the bank.
I tried to think but couldn't,So I jumped in and sank.
I came up once and hollered!I came up twice and cried!
If that water hadn't a-been so coldI might've sunk and died.
But it was Cold in that water! It was cold!
I took the elevator Sixteen floors above the ground.
I thought about my baby
And thought I would jump down.
I stood there and I hollered!I stood there and I cried!
If it hadn't a-been so high
I might've jumped and died.
But it was High up there! It was high!
So since I'm still here livin',I guess I will live on.
I could've died for love--But for livin' I was born
Though you may hear me holler, And you may see me cry--
I'll be dogged, sweet baby,
If you gonna see me die.
Life is fine! Fine as wine! Life is fine!
source: http://famouspoetsandpoems.com/poets/langston_hughes/poems/16946
Life Is Fine by Langston Hughes
I went down to the river,I set down on the bank.
I tried to think but couldn't,So I jumped in and sank.
I came up once and hollered!I came up twice and cried!
If that water hadn't a-been so coldI might've sunk and died.
But it was Cold in that water! It was cold!
I took the elevator Sixteen floors above the ground.
I thought about my baby
And thought I would jump down.
I stood there and I hollered!I stood there and I cried!
If it hadn't a-been so high
I might've jumped and died.
But it was High up there! It was high!
So since I'm still here livin',I guess I will live on.
I could've died for love--But for livin' I was born
Though you may hear me holler, And you may see me cry--
I'll be dogged, sweet baby,
If you gonna see me die.
Life is fine! Fine as wine! Life is fine!
source: http://famouspoetsandpoems.com/poets/langston_hughes/poems/16946
Monday, May 25, 2009
The ideal job?
I remember when i was young, I had many dreams. Teaching is one of the first dream. When I grew up encounter different people, and overdose with dramas and story-book. I was very determined that my ideal job will be a pathologist or psychologist. Till today, it was still very much a dream, probably not able to fulfill.
Marketing has become my choice as my rice bowl eversince I stepped out into the society. I can't say this is the best job or I make the right choice, but somehow it has become part of me. It's a long 9 years and through the very ups-and-downs, I will be moving on yet again.
Life is always about choices, every minutes we are making a choice. From the moment we wake up to the end of the day, we are making choices from the outfit to wear, the meal we eat, the after-work plan and the list goes on.
Well, I guess life has to move on.....and I will make the best of my choice :) .. .It's all just planned i think....
In my next life, I am so going to be a psychologist which even till date I am so interested in the topic - the human mind and human behaviour. For now I guess the nearest to become a psychologist will be a counseller, so probably I will work towards that direction :).
Marketing has become my choice as my rice bowl eversince I stepped out into the society. I can't say this is the best job or I make the right choice, but somehow it has become part of me. It's a long 9 years and through the very ups-and-downs, I will be moving on yet again.
Life is always about choices, every minutes we are making a choice. From the moment we wake up to the end of the day, we are making choices from the outfit to wear, the meal we eat, the after-work plan and the list goes on.
Well, I guess life has to move on.....and I will make the best of my choice :) .. .It's all just planned i think....
In my next life, I am so going to be a psychologist which even till date I am so interested in the topic - the human mind and human behaviour. For now I guess the nearest to become a psychologist will be a counseller, so probably I will work towards that direction :).
Thursday, May 14, 2009
a happy start to my next life..
Do you sometimes look back in your life and feel emptiness or perhaps asking yourself what have you done in your life so far, am I happy with it?
I do, almost every other day. Call it reflection; call it stubbornness or even plainly living in the past, this is one of my main “hobbies”. However, I never seem to find the most definite answer. It could be yes, I am happy for one day and no, I hate my life so far the other, but I never regret living till now.
I am person that can easily forgive but never forget, and I guess this is the one factor that leads me to who I am today. Many people says I think too much and probably too detailed. I guess so too. A simple 1 + 1 equation probably will end up to a complex mathematics sum for me.
Honestly, doing this blog is one of “I’m not too sure if I want to do this” itinerary for me. I just need a space to write down my inner thoughts, my desire and away from the reality life that I am leading, I hope this can be the space for myself to indulge in.
Perhaps this is the real me in this blog...while the other part of me is just leading the way fate brings her too….yes, I am a strong believer of fate.
I will be a happy person here, I promise :)
I do, almost every other day. Call it reflection; call it stubbornness or even plainly living in the past, this is one of my main “hobbies”. However, I never seem to find the most definite answer. It could be yes, I am happy for one day and no, I hate my life so far the other, but I never regret living till now.
I am person that can easily forgive but never forget, and I guess this is the one factor that leads me to who I am today. Many people says I think too much and probably too detailed. I guess so too. A simple 1 + 1 equation probably will end up to a complex mathematics sum for me.
Honestly, doing this blog is one of “I’m not too sure if I want to do this” itinerary for me. I just need a space to write down my inner thoughts, my desire and away from the reality life that I am leading, I hope this can be the space for myself to indulge in.
Perhaps this is the real me in this blog...while the other part of me is just leading the way fate brings her too….yes, I am a strong believer of fate.
I will be a happy person here, I promise :)
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Dun ask me why?
I think maybe i woke up the wrong side of the bed today.. perhaps something in me had changed..but i just started this second blog while my first is not even "active" enough.. ha ha
So feel that this 28 years and so, I've been blindly moving forward. sometimes the pace was slow and steady... sometimes i ran, fell and pick myself up again.. and there are times when i lost my directions and started walking round and round in a maze...
Never did i stopped my pace in the walk of my journey.. and appreciated the little small things around me.. the path that i took everyday from home to the station is filled with lots of greens and pretty little flowers that perhaps i never even took a second glimpse
I wonder if i make a stop today at the familiar path that i been walking everyday.. will i then realise that the surrounding, the little flowers that seems familiar to me is actually all strangers in my life.....
What will i do if there is a second chance in my life... will i walk that same path? Maybe i will, but i will appreciate that little thing more.. and be their best friends? maybe... if....
Like i introduce in my header.. if dreamylnn.wordpress.com is a reality.. this is a blog where my hope, my dream and perhaps my miracle will happens...
If i going to live my life again? dun ask me why?
So feel that this 28 years and so, I've been blindly moving forward. sometimes the pace was slow and steady... sometimes i ran, fell and pick myself up again.. and there are times when i lost my directions and started walking round and round in a maze...
Never did i stopped my pace in the walk of my journey.. and appreciated the little small things around me.. the path that i took everyday from home to the station is filled with lots of greens and pretty little flowers that perhaps i never even took a second glimpse
I wonder if i make a stop today at the familiar path that i been walking everyday.. will i then realise that the surrounding, the little flowers that seems familiar to me is actually all strangers in my life.....
What will i do if there is a second chance in my life... will i walk that same path? Maybe i will, but i will appreciate that little thing more.. and be their best friends? maybe... if....
Like i introduce in my header.. if dreamylnn.wordpress.com is a reality.. this is a blog where my hope, my dream and perhaps my miracle will happens...
If i going to live my life again? dun ask me why?
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