Lynn....

A friend ask me yesterday that if i had a Christian name... for a moment, I questioned myself. Yes in a way but no as it's "not" an official name i called myself...

Lynn is a name that was never planned nor thought for, it's just purely a name that happen by chance or fate.... .... i remember very well that it was during my interview for a waitressing job and the lady boss asked me to have a christian name for easy recall and remembering... and the first name that came into my mind is Lynn. Don't ask me why, it's just popped into my mind when the boss threw me the "think of a christian name for yourself?"...

It's funny that I can't identify myself during my first few days of work... when people calling "lynn", i was like WHO!!! ha ha...

I never thought of having a christian name since i never start with one.. and I think it's weird to name yourself a different name after you had lived for 22 years... i still very much a "Traditional" lady that prefers to use the name named by my parents..... as a respect i guess... ...

Now after 7 years, i will say that this is a name that contains a lot of my memory, past and definitely a meaningful name that i feel close to my heart.... ... maybe it's also a side of life that i will never stepped in again... but it's also a phrase of life that make me who i am today...

though i still not used using it in my corporate life... (i guess i just used to people calling me BC, and BC is a name that is known to most of my friends, colleauge and working partners... so i just plain lazy to "re-introduce" myself")

So if you are reading this blog, yes I have a christian name, and it is LYNN.... this time if you call me using this name, I will definetly say Hi to you :)

"Re"born again!

in my deep thoughts yet again last night and I realise that a lot of changes are going to happen in the coming next month......

On career wise, maybe it's not the best move, but at least I'm moving to something that I always like to do. Achieving my personal goal of doing volunteering work too, and I really looking forward to this new volunteer work thingy. It's a waste that I can't share much of it here, but nevertheless i know that this is my first step to attaining my future goal. :)

Very excited to my both new directions. i think it's really time to tune back my life and lead the way I will love it....

And lastly I am quitting smoking for sure :) ... .... since even my dentist ask me to do so due to the loss of bone of my tooth.

New life, new goals.. and i hope all's will go well.

Life is fine

inspired by this poem.. speak very much of the life most of us is leading now... why not lead a life that is fine... and stop whinning about bits and pieces of life... life is ironic.. doesn't it??

Life Is Fine by Langston Hughes

I went down to the river,I set down on the bank.
I tried to think but couldn't,So I jumped in and sank.
I came up once and hollered!I came up twice and cried!
If that water hadn't a-been so coldI might've sunk and died.
But it was Cold in that water! It was cold!

I took the elevator Sixteen floors above the ground.
I thought about my baby
And thought I would jump down.
I stood there and I hollered!I stood there and I cried!
If it hadn't a-been so high
I might've jumped and died.
But it was High up there! It was high!

So since I'm still here livin',I guess I will live on.
I could've died for love--But for livin' I was born
Though you may hear me holler, And you may see me cry--
I'll be dogged, sweet baby,
If you gonna see me die.

Life is fine! Fine as wine! Life is fine!

source: http://famouspoetsandpoems.com/poets/langston_hughes/poems/16946